Do I Love Rejection?

[datgentry]

I just e-mailed my former employer and ask for another chance on the job.  I guess I sent an e-mail because it was the easier way to be rejected than face to face.   They are such good people and bent over backwards for me to be able to work.  I messed it up.  I am good at  messing things up.  I feel like I am on a roller coaster and it is out of control. I know that I probably should just move on and forget about this job.  My chances are probably slim to nothing on getting this job back.  I can't seem to let it go.  It is driving me crazy.

[beaneebabie]

I think that messing things up is one of the best (and by that I mean the worst) parts of having bp. We all tend to mess up the good things in life so don't feel alone. It is also normal to feel some what 'obsessive' about certain aspects of our lives (ie. your job), so don't beat yourself up over it too much.