Im not happy. i got up the morning and everytthing is racing again and i am taking my meds. i am very irritable and feel like there is so much built up inside that i can't get it out fast enough. i am so fustrated coz im taking my meds (which haven't had time to work yet) and this still isn't going away. I cant think clearly and i keep hearing all those voices (i also have psyhosis or how ever it is spelt). im going completely mad.
I am really upset with someone who was suppose to be my best friend. she is now ignoring me since i was diagnosed. her 17yr sister is also newly diagnosed and also has ADHD so when shes manic she really go OVER the top. anyway my friend told me that because i don't act like her sister that i dont really have bp and that im playing on it. bloodly hell all i wanted was just a friend to talk too and because i wanted to talk about it coz i have been confused all of a sudden im playing on. what is up with that!!
i only have one friend coz no one normally hangs around me coz of my mood swings apparently i can get really aggresive. my friend admits that she knows nothing of bp despite her sister having it so i trying to explain a little to her and i'm playing on it. my god i cant believe it.
anyway i told her that what she said really upset me and that given the fact she is my only friend that i could do with her friendship and maybe a shoulder to cry on and now she is completely ignoring me. she wont anwser phone calls and yesterday i went over there to make sure everythiing was ok and she wouldn't even answer the door. she asked who it was and when i said it was me she just ignored me so i left. I think i might just give up.
anyway sorry i just needed to vent i think
sorry
