Have you ever wondered................

[datgentry]

Have you ever wondered if you have been misdiagnosed?  I still wonder sometimes if I am really bipolar.  Thats funny I guess considering every pdoc that I have seen has said the same thing.  I  just get frustrated a lot of times.  I am super sensitive to most things and find it difficult to deal with life.  I am wondering if my meds are doing what they are suppose to be doing.  I get so sick of taking them.  And now my medicare part D is charging me an outrageous price for my meds.  They want over two hundred dollars for my Abilify.  The mental health system is trying to get me approved for their medication program.  I hope this works out.  If not I'll not be able to afford Abilify.  Maybe, there is another med that is not that expensive.  I guess it is worth checking out.  I have trouble getting motivated to do the things that I need to do.  Like right now, I should be cleaning the house....lol....it'll have to wait. 

[Phyllis]

I hear ya! Sometimes I feel like I have been misdiagnosed. Mainly because I have just been depressed lately and I haven't hit a high in a really long time. I have been horribly unmotivated as of late. All last week all I could do is stay in my bed with my door open so I could keep an eye on the kids. It makes me feel horrible! Right now I am forcing myself to do laundry. And it physically hurts.

[ray38]

Phyllis have you called your pdoc? Might want to think about that if you haven't.I thought I was misdiagnosed until I was put on Invega and went off my rocker.That convinced me that I really am bp. The med companies really take advantage of ppl with mental illnesses, and the insurance companies don't like us.They dont see us as ppl, they see us as dollar signs.

[Phyllis]

I have an appointment with her on the 20th of this month. I have a feeling it is going to be a long meeting! 

[jtokc]

I know I wasn't diagnosed. I am so classic you could do a study on me. Rapid cycler, poor judgment, mania, depression, hypersexuality, I could go on but you know. And now meds handling it. There's no doubt about my diagnosis.

Jane

[wigy]

 ???i wonder alot too about my bp -- but then i take a look back and think i do hav ea problem --i just dont know alot of times i am confused alot - going around in circles in my head thinking yes maybe no maybe heck i dont know anything anymore -- but i take care of my kids and hubby and take my meds -- that is what i kinda know -- hahahah -- i dont know -- blah

[beaneebabie]

I wonder as well coz I'm only new to all this. But I look back at everything and I suppose I can see it. I don't know coz I'm just so depressed lately I don't know what I'm doing. But I have psychitic episodes too and my dr said that that can also be put of bp but....

[Ramji]

I sometimes wonder if I'm really sick ... or just a bad person that deserves all this crap.

[Phyllis]

nah, I doubt you are a bad person.

[Lurker]

I sometime think that I just have had bad morals.
                                     Fred

[Ramji]

nah, I doubt you are a bad person.

Thank you ... I'm sure I'll still feel this way at times ..... but thank you.  It gets really tough sometimes.
I think about things I've done ... mostly thing I've been told I've done .... I can't remember much of the past few years.

[Ramji]

I sometime think that I just have had bad morals.
                                     Fred

I've thought that too ... my wife says I don't and that my intentions were good.  I used to teach yoga and the manic spells started then.  It can make a yoga teacher feel real guilty.  I would also get depressed, but I could hide it all around my students ... I can put on a good face when needed, but some people can see through it.  She says I did a lot of good ... I hope so.  I'm sure I've also done some terrible things.  I know I've gone into a rage frequently and scared my family.  I've had mixed episodes and scared some friends away with my strange behavior. 

[Lurker]

I think that my intentions were always good but my thought process wasn't. I always felt that it wasn't really me, doing the things I've done. I sometimes come to terms with myself, then other times I find myself so ashamed. I have been so differant with the medications and sobriety.
                        Fred

[Jennie]

Yes i've thought about being misdiagnosed plenty of times. For starters they diagnosed me with split personality disorder. Then they changed it to mild depression, then severe, then bipolar. ii don't know..ii stopped taking my medication mainly because it was bothering everyone around me. ii have my moments when ii want to get manic, but ii just suck it up. If only things were as simple as ii make it sound.

[Lurker]

Things are never as easy as they sound. I went unmedicated most of my life and I can tell you for me I doubt that I would be here today without the meds.

                                            Fred