I am sad.......

[datgentry]

I am sad.  I don't know how to put it into words.  I'll try. I have a friend who is actually more than just a friend.  We have been close for several months now.  I have strong feelings for him and I know he cares for me.  He has always been there for me.  I believe that he is a very special person.  So, what is the reason that I am sad? I don't think that we can ever be together as a couple.  Things are so difficult and confusing in my life right now and I am not 100% positive that I would be good enough for him.  My situation at the present is not ideal. I am living with my ex husband and we are actually getting along more like friends than anything else though. My ex has changed a lot over the past eight months.  We were separated from May 2007 until January of this year. I  mean the changes are good ones and he seems to have grown up a lot. I just can't get this other person out of my mind however. It hurts so much. I know that I shouldn't feel this way or should I? I am totally confused and I know that I am truly babbling on and on. It is past midnight and I am still up on this computer. I will regret being up so late in the morning. It is just that I have so much on my mind tonight. It helps to put it into words. I just hope that my ex can't find a way onto this site and read this. It would hurt him. I am paranoid. Oh well,I guess I've said more than enough. thanks for listening.

[Jennie]

Do you think that maybe you're starting to have feelings for your ex again?