secret eating

[nordicnicki]

lately i am finding myself sliding back into my old habit of secret binge eating.i am hiding food in wardrobes and drawers so when the kids arent looking i can eat it.nightimes are the worst as i eat like there is no tomorrow and even wake from what sleep i do get to eat.it is always things like chocolate,sandwhiches,sausage rolls anything i can get my hands on that i can eat quick before someone catches me.
i actually feel quuiet ashamed of myself for doing this as my heart is telling me its not the right think to do but my brain cant seem to shut off from permanently thinking about food.........i used to eat when i was down to make myself happy ......but now it is a whole other story......i dont like eating but i cant stop(if that makes sense)
i started to put on weight with my meds and that got me down....doing this on top isnt helping and gets me more down

[Phyllis]

I COMPLETELY understand. I'm going though a similar situation. While I'm not hiding my food, I just try to get to it before someone else does. I have been so afraid to step on the scale lately because I KNOW I have gained a ton. Some of my clothes are getting too small and that makes me angry, ashamed, and embarrassed.

[nordicnicki]

i have had to go out and spend money we dont have on new clothes as i have gone up a dress size ....my stomach looks like i am pregnant

[Cathy]

I'm quite fortunate in that I haven't gained any weight in a while...though my appetite has definitely increased. Trying to focus on fruit and veg and yoghurt when I feel like snacking, I know it's nowhere near as satisfying but it's better than nothing and then you don't get the guilt. It's horrible to be constantly thinking about food, I really feel for you guys :-(

[Joe Buck]

Nicki...I hope this does not sound absurd..."Do you feel that you might have a eating disorder?" I now that first thing that comes to mind...dam it...another issue to hack over with my p/doc! Eating is a means for satisfaction, comfort & when us BP's are in the grey areas...we have the urge to fill the void...& for some it fills the need & sadly our waistline. Some of the f*cking psyhc. meds...have that terrible weight gain" side effect. Been down that road...but oddly in my present funk...have little urge to eat...believe me this is a first...When alone...have less urge to eat...but with company... no problem. Nicki...I invite you out to lunch...I'll eat like a pig & you can dine on salad & fruit. Then we will go out on the town...party down & get fricken wasted. Sounds like a good game plan to me. You pick the eatery...I can never make up my mind. Pick a spot half way between Wisconsin (USA) & the UK....JB (Bob)

[high maintenence]

I don't eat, but am still fat. I have no urge to eat. I only eat just a tad, usually a small bowl of cereal when I have to take my meds.

[nordicnicki]

i may take you up on that offer one day bob....sounds like we would have a ball x

[nordicnicki]

well the kids have eaten all the junk food that i had in the house and i am going to try really hard now not to buy anymore and to eat better at normal regular times......although i am still constantly thinking about it.i put it along the lines of trying to give up smoking,you think of it more when you dont have any

[dragonfly]

i think i understand,when i gave up smoking it was so hard but it was the self talk or more like self argue that got me through.i actually have spent the last 2 or so years sucking on nicotine lozenges,while i wouldn't recommend it unless you did smoke ,it suppresses my appetite even though i put on weight when i went on meds after a couple of years it disappeared and i honestly have no idea why....i usually only eat dinner,occasionally lunch.......but i have always been like that since i was a kid.one meal a day...the occasional ice cream and choc with the kids.but thats all .once a day it's so weird.....