still no med change

[nordicnicki]

those fucking arses have ballsed up again and lost all my blloods.....so now i have to wait another three weeks with more time off work to do it all over again before i can start on the lithium..........im sick of fucking waiting just wanta change to help me get bettere.............sick of crying being unhappy and sad and a misserable......................its all too much and shit

and what does that bastard of a pdoc do.....sit and fucking laugh and smile at me!!!!!how dare he,he hasnt got it he dont live with it day in and out...........i came out of our meeting and just uncontrolably cried,felt helpless ,useless and worthlesss..................and i thought they were suppose to help,,,,,,fuck he made me feel worse!

i just want stable....even my rapid cycling would look good right now..........think i might join clayton on his trip around the world leave it all behind.fuck em

[Joe Buck]

Nicki,
  Sorry to here about your situation. I have been in the mental health care system for 22 yrs now. I come to realise, that stigma exists within the mental health care system. This is not a blanket stigma...because I had some great professionals that treated me. But I have some glaring instances, were I was stigmatized by the professionals that were sworn to help me. The social pressure of stigma in MI is so powerful that some of the professionals in MH are not immune to pervasive  strength of stigma. Empathy & compassion also lack. In future posts I will describe some of the bullshit that I experienced. Hang in there Nicki...f*ckem if they can't take a joke. & if you tell your (male only) pdoc this & he answers: "What joke?" You answer: " The joke is in your pants, needledick!!!"...Love JB

[Luigi]

  If I was that incompetent at my job (besides browsing eBay and the internet in general) I would be out on my ear quicker than anybody could say Jack Robinson !

Another big hug for you, Nicki  I hope things start to look up for you soon.

By the way, are there any spare seats left on the Clayton Express ? 

[dragonfly]

i'm so sorry they are screwing you around,they really don't think further than your appointment do they.every time i hear these i am so glad my doc is great,she may not be a pdoc but at least she tries and she researches everything before giving me meds  and rings me to make sure i am alright.is it possible for you to find another doctor even if just for one visit just to piss your current pdoc off.the chamomile tea nic get the chamomile tea........i would throw my self on the surgery floor and chuck a 2year old type tantrum....hug hug hug hug your cat...

[Cathy]

Grrr that has happened to me before, results getting lost and having to do them again, but this is much more important as I really think this med change may help you. Good old nhs, though your pdoc sounds particularly cold. Really hope it gets sorted soon.

[nordicnicki]

apologisies for all the swearing in my post....i really was having an extremely bad day with lots of tears and anger at everything and anything.
still very tearful and down on myself.............nurse came to see me today and was a lot more sympathetic and understanding although i still managed not to let her see me cry,i saved that till after she went.
anyway thanks for listening to my rant.........im stuck at the moment in misery limbo till something happens to change that in the next few weeks maybe.....i just hope that this lithiium i am waiting for really does do the trick,i seem to have pinned a lot of hopes on it working for me

[dragonfly]

don't ever apologise to us,i think (even though i am new)that i can say you have the right and the need to let it all out and probably more often.........

[Cathy]

No need to apologise, we're all here for you, in as much as we can be

[Phyllis]

oh, Nicki... You know you don't need to apologize. We understand your frustration.