bipolar poem

[Darkmotive]

The grey Rainbow – written by darkmotive

life has always been a confusing one,
Sometimes I'm bubbly, sometimes I'm numb.

I sometimes fill full of energy like a child,
Like a free soul running wild.

But soon after that I feel quite low,
I sit and wander where did that free soul go?

I can not manage to get out of bed,
It's like my traffic lights are stuck on red.
 
I don't want my family to see me frown,
But it appears my happiness has let me down.

Life seems pointless, hopeless and grey,
I wish I never got out of my bed today.

Then I seem to pull my self through,
This world looks different as if it were new.

I do all the things I could not before,
My energy slowly increases more and more.

I have done so much cleaning but I'm not satisfied,
I pace up and down, can't sleep, yet I'm not tired.

I start writing music for hours on end,
My thoughts start to race, my thoughts start to blend

I go to the shops and buy all new stuff,
As if I didn't own already enough.

I feel so hyper my brain won't stop thinking,
I go back home and begin to start drinking.

Here I am mind like a child,
That free soul again freely running wild.

It's funny how it all turns around,
But before I know it I'm feeling back down.

[Cathy]

Hey, that's good, Darkmotive, do you write a lot of poetry? You definitely have a talent for it. I can really identify with some of the themes there. Do you have any other poems you'd like to share?

[Darkmotive]

no sorry, just something i did randomly it helped me by describing what i go though. I'm into giving new things a go... just the another day i tried candle making

thanks for welcoming me in the newbies section BTW.

-darkmotive aka Michael

[Phyllis]

that was really good. I could totally relate.

[nordicnicki]

i really enjoyed reading that [poem and i think that you descibed bipolar moods quite well.i only seem to be able to do this through music......you obviously have a talent somewhere in writing

[Darkmotive]

hey guys thanks for your replies.
here is another bipolar poem i wrote I'm not very good i know but hey....please try not to hate it too much. 

time to take control of this so called mental illness written by Michael aka Darkmotive

Hello lithium please come through
i hear your here to help bipolar 2
you can start with depression i cant stand him
since he got here hes being nothing but sin
he's made me lonely and rude to myself
and stole all my medals from my happiness shelf

i also know you put a lid on highs
be gentle with them they're normally nice guys
they've helped me to do so much music and art
But with all the racing thoughts, I don't know where to start?
they make it hard for me to sit still
and when it comes to sleep they give zero to nil

i hope you can work night and day without a rest
cause in a few weeks I'm having a blood level test
were trying to get the lithium levels right
I'm certainly not giving up without a fight

you seem to be working but not a huge deal
i guess it takes time to get that that even keel
please lithium will you stay with me
Cause without you I'm trapped with bipolar and it never lets me free!!

[k]

michael i haven't read the second poem yet but i read the first one and it's absolutely incredible in how it describes bipolar.  thanks for sharing and i hope you stay with it.  do you write them when you're up or down?  and do you write them slowly or do they just pop out?
k

[Darkmotive]

thanks k, i normally write stuff when I'm low cause i can controll my thoughts easier, as when I'm hypermanic i cant sit still to write

this is my first time writing poems (except for primary school or grade school you guys call it) i started writting these poems for my parents so they could understand Little what its like to be bipolar.

[nordicnicki]

another good poem from yourself darkmotive....you would have got on well with garry who used to visit the site he writes tons of poetry.....do you ever keep journals of your feelings from day to day?