Looking back on cutting

[Phyllis]

I'm not... cutting is quite common especially when one is in a state of depression.

[high maintenence]

Have you gone through that, Clayton?

[jmiefish]

i dont cut.. but i burn =/ i just do it when im depressed and it feels better to focus on a different kind of pain than emotional. i just do it on the inside of my hips because then nobody can see it and its like my little secret.. my doc knows about it of course but.. it just seems to help =/ the scars fade but for me they kind of tell a story. i remeber making every one of them.

but 3 months of no cutting! that is amazing! good job!

[nordicnicki]

you really need some help with the burning issue sweetheart....it isnt good as you already know......im still battling what i do and it is had and its easy to slip back into...........your young and beautiful and im sure that you really dont want to be scared for life,like i am in so many places on my body....please talk to people about it that can try to help you...i understand how it takes away one pain for another,but there other ways beleive me xx

[La Loca]

I have been cutter for about 17 years now, when I was a teenager I would burn myself too, and I had one episode as an adult when I put a cigarette out on my forearm, I was drunk, it was VERY painful the next few days and had it covered up in a big bandage. Of course everyone asked what happened, I could not possibly tell the truth so I lied. I have cutting scars all over my forearms and upper thighs, it is not pretty. And yet I still go over those cuts as they start to somewhat fade and make new scars. The last time I cut was about 2 months ago. I hate it because I know it hurts my family to see the cuts. I had a bad episode that I am blaming on the new antidepressants that I was taking and pain killers I was prescribed. I was planning on taking my life, but my boyfriend, thankfully, would not leave my side. I felt sooo bad afterward, I had told him, "I do not love you, I don't want to be with you, etc..." It was bad, and he took it all and stayed with me and told me, "I know you don't really mean those things" and I really didn't, it actually hurt me while I was saying those things, but still went on. As far as tattoos, I have them all over my body, each of them has their own meaning, but I also do it because I like the needle and the pain that comes along with it. I am addicted to them. I used to donate blood just to watch the needle go in my vein and watch the blood make its way out of my body. Ok, I am sorry, I have rambled on, it just feels so good to finally be able to say what I have been through and what I have done without being judged. I love this website!

[nordicnicki]

i totally get the tattoos and giving blood...i actually think and did the sam as you on that one......it is a great feeling getting inked but its for totally different reason than mutilating yourself