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« on: January 29, 2010, 06:46:48 AM » |
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I thought I posted a greeting, but I guess I did something wrong. Guess I'll start over.
My name is Scott. I've never posted in a forum til now. Sorry if I ramble. I normally just read what everyone else posts. I'm Bipolar and depressed. I haven't slept in three days. I just wanted to say hello and let everbody know I'm not just a "looker".
You all have been uplifting to me, despite the depression. Manic is great, while it lasts; depression sucks as you all know. Sorry to ramble. Just needed to say something to someone. Nobody on Facebook. Nobody like me anyhow. Nice to know others are out there who understand. Thank you for letting me post. I must sound young. I'm 35. I feel like a zombie; look like one too. I hope I posted this in the correct area. I wish I had something else to say. I'll stop rambling now. Thanks again.
-Scott
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“Madness is to think of too many things in succession too fast, or of one thing too exclusively” -Voltaire
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Paz
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« Reply #1 on: January 29, 2010, 06:56:47 AM » |
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Welcome to our site. I'm sorry to hear that you haven't been sleeping...do you have any meds to help with that?
Depression does suck, I'd much rather be manic.
The forum has been a little slow as of late, but that happens from time to time.
Post some more! I'm sure that people here would love to hear from you, and perhaps a lively dicussion will start.
Take care, and try to not let the whole challenge of living with BP get you down...I know, easier said than done.
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If you tremble indignation at every injustice then you are a comrade of mine. - Che Guevara
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Phyllis
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« Reply #2 on: January 29, 2010, 07:13:40 AM » |
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Welcome Scott!
Feel free to post more. You were not rambling at all. We like meeting new people! Being BP2 I understand the depression. It sucks, especially when it lingers. I hope things brighten up for you soon. Being that it is winter doesn't really help the depression either. Hang in there!
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Scooterhrst
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« Reply #3 on: January 29, 2010, 01:18:35 PM » |
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Thank you both for making a guy feel welcome! I'm not so depressed right now; it comes and goes. paz, I'm taking 50mg of Trazodone, and 600mcg of Melatonin. Still haven't gotten a wink. And Phyllis it's nice to meet a fellow BP2 too. You two were nice enough to post rather quickly, and didn't tar and feather me for what I would call a rant. Thank you.
For medication, I'm currently taking: Buspirone 10mg twice daily, Lamotrigine 150mg twice daily, Clonazepam 1mg two at night and one in the morning. Lastly my psychiatrist has started me on Geodon 40mg once at night, but it's been making me nauseous and lethargic (which I don't understand because my body feels tired, but I still can't sleep). Anyhow, just wanted you to know and maybe if you had any helpful advice I might ask my psychiatrist and therapists? To me, they seem adamant and refuse to drop the Geodon. They say the effects will pass with time. Time is not something I enjoy right now. Thank you in advance paz and Phyllis.
-Scott
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“Madness is to think of too many things in succession too fast, or of one thing too exclusively” -Voltaire
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« Reply #4 on: January 29, 2010, 04:52:09 PM » |
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hey there scott and welcome to bp babble....you have obviously looked around the site and like what you see....im glad.we are a good bunch on here and will listen to whatever you feel you want to post be it good or bad.
sorry to hear that you have not been feeling so good of late.....i hate the depressions they can be quite self centre and selfish and no matter what anyone does or says it doesnt change how you feel.sleep deprevasion is a real bummer i so hate that....it drains you of everything and can drive you nuts......
heres hoping that things pick up for and i look forwards to getting to know you better
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bound and tied in emotion but still we fly.losing all my reason cause theres nothing left to blame.
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Phyllis
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« Reply #5 on: January 29, 2010, 07:49:44 PM » |
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You'd have to ask Paz about the Geodon, she used to be on it.
I did the melatonin for awhile, but it stopped working for me. they put me on temazepam (restoril) and that worked great. I haven't had to take any in close to a month now, it's been great!
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Scooterhrst
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« Reply #6 on: January 29, 2010, 08:17:48 PM » |
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Thank you for the warm greeting, nordicnicki. I have looked around the site alot. In fact, alot before I decided to make an account.
I'm feeling a little better. I managed to snatch up an hours worth of sleep. I know, not much. It's the most I've had in awhile. And the crazy (relative term) thing is I didn't take any sedatives right before I dozed off. Maybe I had extra from the night before; who knows. I wanted to ask you all your opinions and thoughts on Out-patient treatment at a Psych. clinic? My insurance declined decent coverage on in-patient care, so of course I had to choose the alternative. Sorry for rambling again.
You, paz, and Phyllis are great at welcoming and making one feel comfortable enough to "talk". And Phyllis, thanks for replying. And yes, melatonin is great (when it works). I hope you all have an excellent day tomorrow!
-Scott
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Paz
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« Reply #7 on: January 30, 2010, 08:06:28 AM » |
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Are you taking the geodon with food or a glass of milk? It only works if it is taken with food... I think it helps it to absorb properly.
Did they give you the geodon to help with sleep? Usually the smallest therapeutic dose is 80mg for use as an anti-psychotic.
Have you tried drinking chamomile tea when you take your melatonin? That might help to make you drowsy.
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If you tremble indignation at every injustice then you are a comrade of mine. - Che Guevara
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« Reply #8 on: January 30, 2010, 09:43:54 AM » |
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Hi there, paz. Yes, I've been taking the Geodon on a full stomach. And yes, I was prescribed it for sleep. I get these crazy side effects after taking it though; I have dizzness, lethargy (bigtime), and nausea about an hour or two afterwards. My psychiatrists and therapists all believe the side effects should decline in a week or two. What I can't understand (and what the any of them can't explain properly) is how I'm taking a medication for sleep, having severe lethargy (my opinion), and yet sleep eludes me. I can understand a sedative not working for some individuals, but the lethargic reaction without feeling sleepy-tired?? I must be going crazy (please pardon that). I'm absolutely clueless. And when I'm in a manic/panic mood, I can sense the extra adrenaline, but the lethargy is nasty. It's as if my body hoards adrenaline during mania, and slowly feeds it to me when I'm not (my take on why I can't sleep when I'm not manic). In a nutshell (and humor me if you will) I feel screwed.
But mentioning the chamomile tea? I actually grow that in my herb garden in the spring. I know it makes a slighly bitter tea, but I've never actually consumed it. Thanks for the suggestion. I'll give it a try this evening. I'd try and sleep now, but I don't want to waste melatonin, or chamomile. Concerning the above though, any input or advice you all have, I'll gladly accept.
-Scott
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goosemuffin
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« Reply #9 on: January 31, 2010, 09:45:09 PM » |
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Hi Scott, and welcome! Sorry I'm a little late on the bandwagon, I tend to be quite narcissistic and get all involved in myself LOL. This is a great place, and I know you will fit in nicely. You can come and be yoursel, act a fool or be an idiot and everyone here will forgive you (eventually), since we all know what it means to be out of your mind at times. I hope you decide to stay and again, welcome!
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People don't change. Unless your bipolar.
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Scooterhrst
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« Reply #10 on: January 31, 2010, 11:38:23 PM » |
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It's nice to meet you, goosemuffin. I do like it here, thanks. It's nice to have friends again. I can count the friends I have on one hand. Any new friends are greatly appreciated. I often take for granted what it's like to experience true friendship; I go from one extreme to the other. I cried tonight, as despair set in.
My loving wife and kids have handled my bipolar issue better than most. I don't know why, but after reading the posts about losing friends because of who we are, I lost my control. I've put my family through incredible hell. I was manic last night, now I'm in my sandtrap pit. I want you all to know how much I appreciate your replies. I hate not being in control. I'm in an outpatient program for suicidal thoughts. I should've mentioned it in my first post, but was embarrassed.
Thank you again for being here. You boost my confidence where I had little before.
-Scott
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chasemanzmum
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« Reply #11 on: May 11, 2010, 03:58:37 PM » |
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welcome to our creative venue..I'm chasemanzmum
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