Emotional support

[Dreamline]

Is is just me or does it seem like when you need some one the most, they aren't there?

[Phyllis]

I like to call it Murphy's Law. It always seems to happen when you need someone (anyone for that matter) the most. Then, no one is there and you are forced to deal with the feeling of lonliness on top of whatever it is that is bothering you in the first place. When I was around 18 I had a very bad episode of depression. I wanted to drive into a brick wall or drive off the freeway into a canyon. I was pretty bad. I went to call my therapist that I had seen when I was 15 - 16 and they were no longer at that office. I felt so let down and scared. I had no one to talk to, friends were nowhere to be found and my family was several states away. Times like that really suck.

[dionomo]

I don't really get much support from anyone .........except family but they don't really help me calm down bc there is no real way of getting me calm but just waiting until I feel myself being there then I just apologize and generally no one really wants me around anymore I think some people think it is funny when I get into an episode and that is rather hurtful I always think people are watching me and out to get me or kill me or something off the wall
this web site is pretty much my support if this wasn't here I might not be
I kinda have lost a lot of friends bc everyone thinks I am crazy
the ones that have been around me my whole life are really the only ones
that I can even be around I read a bit about schizophrenia and I wonder if I fit that profile sometimes

[Dreamline]

Phylis, that exactly what I am talking about.  Its bad enough feeling like we do at times but add lonliness to that and the fact that in my case, I'm too much of an inconvenience for them.  Fucking sucks.

dionomo, I have had the some shit happen to me.  People thinking its funny when I am all wacked out.  One time I was completely flipped out screaming about something and my mom and brother fucking made fun of me.  I threw a bunch of stuff in the floor for them to clean up.