What Do You Consider Real Hallucinations?

[SmilingElephant]

Now that i've found what i think is a cool group of Bipolars like me <---i'm diggin the afro lol.....

I need to hear from you all what your definition of a hallucination is?

Because.......lately i think i've been having what i call "mini-hallucinations"....bc i know there are people that have these HUGE hallucinations that are super serious.

But anyway.....i've been experiencing lately...a sense that there are demons or spirits that are closing in on me and trying to make me commit suicide....or my new fave word..."delete" myself. And i have the voices inside my head.....not just the "i thought somebody was calling my name" voices but the inner voices just really trying to convince me i need to die.

Also....every now and then i see little black dot like bugs out the corner of my eyes....and sometimes i feel the presence of a person when there is no one near me at all. Are these hallucinations?

I really need to know....thanx guys

[Paz]

 Yeah, those count as hallucinations. There are visual hallucinations, and auditory [you hear things]. Maybe you could talk to the Doc about it?

[SmilingElephant]

Thanx paz! i'm up for a real psych eval next month sometime to see which BP i am. I'm gonna run this by my therapist this morning...lol!

[dragonfly]

i get a type of hallucination know as a sensory one,,i often get the feeling of being zapped all through my body,like an electric current and it hurts,i would rather see things again,it changes over time and i think your subconscious in control of all of it.i prefered it when i would be having conversations with people that aren't there,i don't really talk to many people so talking to a voice instead was pretty much ok for me...once when i was a teenager i thought i was seeing things which was normal for me and my mum saw it too,we think it was a ghost,we were in an old spooky girls home that burnt to the ground sometime in history(mum loves spooky old places) that was a really ffreaky thing..one of the girls that died,she walked out of a doorway and across the room and dissapeared ,we just looked at each other in shock,saying did you see that.weird....

[SmilingElephant]

Wow. See i believe ghosts are demons as i am a Christian and the bible says the dead are conscious of nothing...but like i said i do get a feeling that somebody is there...u know how u have ur back toward the doorway but u can sense when someone has entered the room? I'm gettin alot of that lately. But there's no visible person there.

[Ashes]

I hear voices too.

[Dreamline]

A few weeks ago I was very depressed and speeding as well...I was camping in the woods one night and hallucinated a milk white Rhino that I though could have been a triceratops coming out of the tree onto the road ahead of me...and predators on the other side of the road.  In the back of my mind I thought they weren't real but it still freaked me out and I walked back to the campsite, I would have ran but thought they would give chase.  I used to think all of this stuff was normal, go figure...like it happened to everyone. 

When I'm euphoric manic I believe I am the messiah (I swear it seems to happen every time and always makes perfect sense)...I've though I was Christ reincarnated before, one time that I was Jimi Hendrix (because my last name is Hendrix)...that I was a shaman or going to save the world by writing books that everyone can relate to and understand.  I get mostly delusional when manic but sometimes people and things look different...like they are amazingly beautiful in ways I have never seen before. 

Then if I am depressed everything is ugly and deteriorating, falling apart...like if there is a little tiny crack in a dish, it looks like its going to break in half to me or other people comment on me having such nice skin but to me its full of nasty pores and zits and bumps.  I always think I look way older than I am and I'm going to die.

[SmilingElephant]

I think i look older than what i am too...even tho every person i meet thinks i'm 4 to 5 years younger than what i am. But i see lines and sagging skin.         

i've always had these beliefs that maybe i'm a prophetess because i have these vivid dreams and the ones that don't make sense usually if i put together the whole series it tells me something that applies to my life. Other dreams tend to come true. And some dreams are just fun:)

[chasemanzmum]

I have had hallucinations so bad that they felt so real so vivid that I cried about it.