Running on Empty

[Phyllis]

Things around here the past few weeks have been really crazy and I feel like I'm running on empty. I had to pack my oldest son for camp last week, then I ended up letting Brian handle that because I didn't have the check list. Then I had to pack me for my little get away to the casino. Packing for me is an exhaustive thing to do, so this was a big deal for me...

I was gone from Sunday and came back Tuesday evening. I was flippin out during the drive home, but I made it. Saturday Nathan came home from camp... with a mohawk  

Saturday was Brian and i's 9th wedding anniversary. Sadly, we did nothing. It was tooooooooo hot! And this wasn't a payday Friday so there was that....

Now, this week I am busy trying to get the house and us in order to leave on Saturday to go to North Carolina for our yearly vacation to Emerald Isle. I have to get the house all cleaned and tidy because we will have people here house sitting. Then I have to get all the laundry done and start packing Thursday/Friday. And I'm already getting anxiety for the drive.

So, I probably won't be around much next week. But I will try to pop in from time to time. The wireless there sucks.

And... Sara has been having night terrors. So, I haven't been taking anything for sleep so I know I will hear her when she starts to have fit. Which means I am exhausted even if I get a nap. I slept all day Sunday.

[Paz]

 Wow...poor Miz Coffee! I am sorry to hear about all of the stress that you have been experiencing.  I have to say that the mowhawk sounds like a much needed dose of comic relief  .
 Maybe you need to talk to someone about the flipping out in the car...there must be something that is troubling you that is manifesting itself in that way[extreme anxiety]. Hope that you can get a handle on that.
 Does the pediatrician have anything to say about the night terrors that Sara is experiencing? That sounds scary and rough to deal with. 
 Hugs to you!

[Ashes]

Yes like paz said Hugs to you.  I dont know how you do it and not get completely overwhelmed.   

[Phyllis]

yes, the mohawk was a bit of comic relief... At first I was a little miffed because Brian gave him permission to do it and didn't bother talking it over with me. But, what's done is done.

As far as the anxiety I get while traveling in a car... it all boils down to control I don't have control of the drivers around me (Who knows what they have done, drugs, alcohol, meds?? bad driving record? suspended licence?) I don't have control of the car since I'm not driving, which means I can't be a defensive driver.... Instead, I feel like a defenseless passanger.  It is something I have got to get over. And I probably  need therapy for that; but I don't think we can afford that at this point.

And believe me, Ashes, I AM overwhelmed. I try to just do a little bit at a time so I don't get too crazy, but it is easier said than done. The mind starts running with all the things I have to get done, and I start listening to my mind and then I get caught up in a whirlwind and crash. Get back up, dust myself off and try it again. It can be quite debilitating though, sometimes I just sit there and want to cry because I feel so overwhelmed.

[lulu000]

hugs from me too, hope everything turns out well x