Hi, I'm new

[Dreamline]

I stay manic forever without meds...I remember being euphoric for months before.  I don't know how the hell I stayed that way but I did.  Most of the time I get way irritable at some point, sometimes switching back and forth or going to irritable and then crashing into depression.  Other times I am predominantly euphoric and flip out if something doesn't go right and instantly back to euphoric. 

[daveboy]

I'm now right in the middle. I want to scream at everybody and everything, but I also want to cry my eyes out (release?).

[Paz]

Dave, sounds like you are having a mixed episode.
 Smiling E, I'm sorry that you get the same sorts of feelings that I do...and unfortunately everyone here also gets similar shitty feelings. Life is just hard sometimes.

[Ashes]

Hi daveboy and welcome to the site.  Sorry to hear your suffering through depression and hopefully it will pass soon. 

[Dreamline]

I'm now right in the middle. I want to scream at everybody and everything, but I also want to cry my eyes out (release?).

I am w/ paz on that one, sounds like a mixed episode....I had one not long ago, I was more manic but definitely mixed.   On the 4th of july, I was in the woods throwing firewood at animals that didn't exist.  I was pissed off, very depressed and felt abandoned because my friend went to sleep leaving me was up alone.  I was hallucinating, argumentative about everything, depressed, hyped up, anxious...it sucked.