i deleted my nami bio and brought it here. not expecting any responses i already intro'd self before but thought i'd share a little more...
i'm very shy (of coarse it might not look like that now) about sharing but i'm going to say just a couple things. i've lived many different lives in my almost 50 years. passionate intense extremes up and down at different ages produce different kinds of existence. I use to be embarrassed and almost just was to admit my years. but i am not sad i am older. i'm ready to live another kind of existence and do not long for youth. i am grateful for my life and have no regrets about decisions i've made based on an illness i only now realize was not my fault. plus my existence now is quite different after losing my family in different ways what seemed to very quickly - except my husband who shares my illness. we struggle but i am lucky for our enduring love throughout.
I actually have been extremely lucky considering the severity of my illness and yet the things i've been allowed to do. and as i've read quite a few of you know what it took to graduate from college. friends from high school just whizzed on through while i undertook the 13 year plan. Not one of my friends ever understood nor did i at the time all i felt was inadequacy and shame for my lack of control. i wanted desperately to continue on in school but...illnesses have good and bad days, weeks, years and lives. i come to this site hoping to end a long period of isolation and a hope to be empowered to move back out in the world in a more helpful capacity. and mostly with a hope i can put my shame to rest. my name now is k. sorry if this was too long but that's my favorite word and some day i hope to not use it so much cuz it can be annoying to other people. sorry!!!!
