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« on: July 22, 2011, 11:02:59 PM » |
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Just found this site trying to find a little support and gather on other peoples experiences and how they deal with being bipolar. I was diagnosed as bipolar I while serving in the military, been really stressed out lately trying to schedule VA exam. They denied that it was service connected although I had no history and seeemed to be completely normal before I hit rock bottom while serving and had a severe episode where I heard voices, thought people were out to get me and all kinds of fun stuff. Now when I get stressed I often lose touch with reality and hear voices. When I'm stressed I have weird flashes of visual/auditory hallucinations where.....Oh man I don't even know how to explain it..... It's like a visual flash of me being somewhere else, like seeing a bunch of people and I hear a group of people maybe 5 or more talking really fast. This usually lasts about 10-20 seconds. Among other things that happen, I'm really struggling to continue working. Thinkgs have been harder for me lately, I've run out of medication and cant afford good insurance. Just hoping the VA will grant me disability and healthcare before things get w ay out of control. Anyways, sorry for the rant but I feel a little out of it. I feel like I'll be judged harshly or looked at as strange for my seemingly incoherent rant run on posting that really goes nowhere. Um yeah, seems like a nice site, looking forward to talking to you all.  |
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« Reply #1 on: July 23, 2011, 10:16:15 AM » |
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Welcome to the site.
I'm so sorry that you have been suffering. Did you also get diagnosed with PTSD? It sounds like you may have that in addition to your Bipolar.
What kind of Meds do they have you taking, and how long has it been since you ran out of them?
Keep on posting here, we will listen and try to help as much as we can.
Thank you for serving in the Military and being there for the USA, you deserve much more respect than what the VA is giving you. I hope that the VA gives you the benefits that you so clearly deserve. Peace.
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« Reply #2 on: July 24, 2011, 06:40:08 PM » |
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I think it has been about a month or so, I'm not entireely sure. And yes, I have PTSD, how did you know? Thank you for the reply and support.  |
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« Reply #3 on: July 24, 2011, 06:41:57 PM » |
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I take Abilify, xanax, and cogentin as well as trying several others for sleep, btw. Xanax doesn't do much for panic attacks, I've learned.  |
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« Reply #4 on: July 24, 2011, 06:59:38 PM » |
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I figured about the PTSD from the symptoms you described. I have it too, and some of the things you described sound familiar.....flashes of being somewhere, etc. Mine stems from the trauma of all 3 of my siblings committing suicide. I'm sure your flashes must be quite horrific, and I am so sorry about that. There is a treatment for PTSD called EMDR.....you should research it, it is supposed to be very helpful for war vets.
I think Ativan & Valium are most effective for panic attacks......quite a few people here take Ativan for panic, I personally take Valium for them. It works.
Glad to see that you came back to post more. I hope that you find this place helpful.
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« Reply #5 on: July 25, 2011, 07:38:46 PM » |
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for those that have or had PTSD can kinda sniff that stuff out.  it is kinda true of any kind of illness, if you have it or had it you recognize others.. |
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« Reply #6 on: July 25, 2011, 09:20:35 PM » |
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Welcome to the site.  |
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« Reply #7 on: July 27, 2011, 06:34:04 PM » |
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Hello, I am sorry to hear that the VA is not covering you for this. I filed a claim for anxity, depression, and bipoloar disorder and they gave me a category of mood disorder NOS. They started me out at 50% disability rating. I wonder why they have not approved yours? If you have any questions you want to ask me about the VA claims process then give me a message. I am interested in what your situation is regarding the VA and I think I can help you.
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« Reply #8 on: July 29, 2011, 01:19:16 PM » |
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Well, their excuse for not giving me service connected was that I was depressed for about a month after I got laid off from my job before enlisting. And somehow my medical paperwork says I attempted suicide at one point in my life before joining where I never even thought such a thing until serving. I asked them to remove it from the paperwork before my discharge, I don't know if it was actually done or not.
I have supporting statements and my fiance along for the ride with me for the exam to support my statement so they can't throw my claims out of the window for only me claiming that i had no issues before enlisting.
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« Reply #9 on: July 29, 2011, 01:37:55 PM » |
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they usually steer clear of enlisting people with any kind of mental issues. so, you might want to research and see if they allow anyone with mental illness's in your particular branch. Or at least point that out to someone. Doesn't make sense to me why they would enlist someone with suicide attempts on their record. Ya know?
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« Reply #10 on: July 30, 2011, 10:53:27 AM » |
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they usually steer clear of enlisting people with any kind of mental issues. so, you might want to research and see if they allow anyone with mental illness's in your particular branch. Or at least point that out to someone. Doesn't make sense to me why they would enlist someone with suicide attempts on their record. Ya know?
Yeah, when I enlisted I pointed out that there were no existing conditions, no episodes of severe depression, no drug use or anything at all. My record was clean. They are so overmanned right now my branch doesn't accept anyone that needs a waiver for anything at all. The suicide attempt was apparently put in there buy another psychiatrist that I was seeing temporarily while mine was on her one month leave. Maybe she got the paperwork mixed up with someone else, I have no clue. I'm sure this isn't the first time something has turned up that isn't supposed to be there, so it may not be so hard to point out that it's not true. |
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« Reply #11 on: October 25, 2011, 05:21:22 PM » |
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you will never be judged here... i think we are all just floating with our
noses above the surface. it is so terrible that the government and insurance companies
dictate care... but it is good to have places like this that we can come and talk...
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