i was going through some of my old journals last night and discovered this... i wrote it right around the time i was first diagnosed...
i'm in the process of trying to understand consciousness as the foundation of our human experience and the reality that is perceived... there is no ghost in the atom... more so, the atom is a creation of our mind... consciousness creates reality... i want to test the limits of perception, to move beyond the constructs? that restrict existential possibilities... i've learned it is indeed the logic that can trip us over, the pervasive thoughts that create our prison... real truth lies in the depths of the heart... it is time to abandon this reality that has obscured what is real and what is not... I am not sure about the future of this world, but I trust that the world that I see is changing shape and that a new personal capacity for love, joy and truth will soon? be revealed... i guess i am trying to transcend my outdated mind state, trying to overthrow all those rules and regulations that society has placed on me, trying to see the light amongst the shadows...
Kensho
