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« on: November 02, 2011, 01:44:29 AM » |
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Yesterday morning when I woke up I didn't feel okay, nothing felt okay, and not only did it not feel okay but it felt like nothing would ever be okay again. lol I still don't feel okay. I don't know what's wrong besides I feel 'off'. I was convinced when I woke up my boyfriend was not my boyfriend it was just someone who looked like him and I thought it might be a dream. I was also convinced something very bad was going to happen and had an intense sense of dread. I felt disconnected with my body and at the same time like things were too 'real'. I still feel like that sort of, I can't sleep it's 3:30am, and I keep going between feeling paranoid, delusional, about to snap, and just plain tired. I also seem to be having breathing problems ( a slight wheezing/hard to breath) I can feel water or something in my throat/lungs.
I had been taking venlafaxine for a month just one capsule ( I really wish I could give the mg but I can't find the bottle right now and I don't want to wake everyone up looking for it) at night, then last week my doctor increased it to two, and this week I have just started three. I don't know if it's the medication, or just an episode, or me over reacting, I don't know. But my question is: When is it appropriate to go to the hospital for symptoms like this?
I really don't want to go and have them look at me like I'm a paranoid idiot with nothing wrong with me. I also don't want to get there and feel fine temporarily and then again have them look at me like I'm crazy and send me on my way. But I'm worried about if I dont go and it's something serious I could be in trouble. What would you guys do if you were in my situation? I'm scared out of my mind right now.
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« Reply #1 on: November 02, 2011, 09:55:55 AM » |
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My two cents.... If your not feeling right, call your doc and let them know what is going on. Let them know you are unsure as to what you should do. If that doesn't pan out, then go to the hospital. You don't wanna screw around if there is something wrong. In the past I liked to shrug stuff off... I ended up in the hospital for a week on the verge of being septic because I had been having gallbladder attacks and didn't pay attention to them.  It doesn't matter if what you are going through is mental or physical, if your not feeling right, chances are there is probably something wrong. Better to be cautious then ignoring something... ya know? |
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« Reply #2 on: November 02, 2011, 10:18:42 AM » |
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I don't know about that drug. But I have had thoughts like that during an episode...its denial in a way. Looking back there were times I "Should" have went but I was thinking the same, they'd think I was ok...sometimes it wasn't that, I don't like the idea of being hospitalized anyway. I have always had a babysitter and was very lucky in that respect. Over a year ago I was in a mixed episode, hadn't slept in days and was in the woods hallucinating and thinking horrible depressing shit trying to reason with my self. I threw fire logs at "animals" half the night...I ended up drugging myself with klonapin just to go to a pdoc appointment...I didn't tell him and he still though I was tweaked out. I've noticed the pdoc's tend to downplay your symptoms if you are in a real bad state, they don't want you to wig out more...most people probably don't want to know but me, I'd rather know what they think. Anyway hope this helps. Definitely call somebody...tell about the physical symptoms and everything.
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« Reply #3 on: November 02, 2011, 12:45:33 PM » |
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all of your symptoms can be directly linked to Effexor... you're having alot of the classic reactions... Effexor can cause anxiety, insomnia and drowsiness among other things... i would call your doctor first unless you feel too overwhelemed, then it might be best to go to the hospital... it doesn't surprise me really, he/she is ramping up your dose, maybe it's being done too quickly, then again, that's just the nature of that drug... i was having similar symptoms one time, my wife and sister took me to the hospital... they told my wife it was anxiety even though they were well aware of my illness... they gave me a large dose shot of ativan, waited for me to chill out and sent us home... two days later i had a major psychotic break and when i arrived at the hospital was quickly brought to a room without even completing the admission paperwork and sedated... i'm not suggesting you're going to have a break, just sharing a little story about anxiety... these drugs are powerful and some of us just can't handle them... i hope your doctor knows what he fuck they're doing... Kensho  |
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« Reply #4 on: November 02, 2011, 04:46:25 PM » |
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Are you BP1 or BPII?
I am BP1, and any type of SSRI anti depressant makes me absolutely batshit crazy......they had first put me on one when they were trying to determine my DX, and after about 14 days I went crazy ass manic......got dragged to the Pdoc's office [which is connected to the Hospital] and I was sedated, admitted as a day patient. And then it was painfully clear what my Dx was.
SSRI AD"s are not a good thing for a BP1. Many get mania from antidepressants. Call the Doc, and try to get in, some Docs will take an emergency office visit and make another patient who isn't in crisis wait for a bit. All of the Pdocs that I have had do this, but I have US Docs, always have.
I have to take the ferry to go see my Pdoc, but it's worth it. And soon I won't have to, because we are moving.
The main thing to do is to try and not get panicky. I know it's hard, but remember to breathe deeply and try to relax. And if the med really bothers you, don't ramp up your dose till you see or talk to the Doc. Hang in there, ok?
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« Reply #5 on: November 02, 2011, 07:21:49 PM » |
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Do you have a med line you could call? Here we have 811 and you can talk to a nurse. Or maybe call a pharmacist or your doctor.
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« Reply #6 on: November 03, 2011, 07:48:37 AM » |
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Sorry about the late reply guys, got put on valium yesterday after telling my mom what I was feeling with the delusions and everything so I was a little doped up and couldn't move very well. ( I felt awesome and everything was funny aside from being really sleepy so it was pretty fun.. lol) And now I have a doctors appointment at 7pm tonight so hopefully I can get things fixed. Well right now I'm being treated for severe depression but my case worker is getting me to talk to a new psychiatrist because she thinks I'm BP NOS among other things. But yeah like you said Paz they seem to make me feel weird, anti depressants don't seem to work with me. Either I feel really fucked up and paranoid (like with this drug and zoloft) or I feel pretty much nothing aside from even more tired all day than I already am (paxil). If it gets bad I'll definitely go to the hospital cause I'd rather look crazy and it be nothing than be sick and not go. Hope that didn't last too long and you got better fast.  My boyfriend just went through the whole gallbladder thing for 9 months and it didn't look pleasant at all. I feel like I'm close to a break, but I'm not sure if it's the meds, the fact that I'm not getting help and things are just getting worse, or what.  And I'm not sure if there's a line here that I could call, I think it'd have to be the hospital. Thanks for the concern and help guys. |
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« Reply #7 on: November 03, 2011, 12:36:16 PM » |
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Valium is awesome though hahahaha!  I have been feeling like shit since being put on the lithium. I don't know what's normal or not. But I am sinking into a depression again. I keep crying and wanting to kill myself and just feel all around ill. This is brutal. |
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« Reply #8 on: November 03, 2011, 12:55:15 PM » |
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Yeah it is, if only I could take that all the time instead of trying out a mass amount of different meds all the time, it'd be great.  lol Maybe it's time to go back to your doctor and think of trying a different medication? |
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« Reply #9 on: November 03, 2011, 01:11:57 PM » |
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Valium is awesome, it's really the only med that I don't mind taking as needed.
Ashley, it is normal to feel a bit spacey and unwell when you first start Lithium, your body needs to adjust to it. You haven't been taking it that long, you need to give it at least a month and see how it goes. Give it a chance, and if you still feel like crap, talk to the Doc. Your dose might not be right, and it takes time to get your blood level up to the therapeutic range.
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« Reply #10 on: November 03, 2011, 05:29:51 PM » |
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Oh I know! I'm certainly not giving up on it yet. I just really hope I can adjust to it because man I've been miserable.
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« Reply #11 on: November 03, 2011, 08:03:31 PM » |
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I hope you feel better soon. Got back from the doctor and he didn't do fuck all. Basically told me that unless my case worker tells him to give me different medication he's not going to do anything. So I have to wait a week for my appointment with them until I can see if I can do anything. Until then I guess I just have to ride this out, it seems to have gone away mostly for now anyway. Guess it's for the best. I wish doctors were more sympathetic, if it was them on the other end of things they'd sure as hell want better treatment than a lot of them give us!  Sorry for the rant, just kinda pissed. He also told my 14 year old brother pretty much the same thing he told me, that because of whatever is wrong with him he's not going to amount to anything in life and is going to be jobless on the streets. Such an encouraging thing to say to a mentally ill 14 year old. :/ |
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« Reply #12 on: November 04, 2011, 10:32:28 AM » |
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Ugh, doctors are useless so much of the time!  I don't understand why they don't listen or care. |
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