Hospital Stay

[Geister]

I've been given an appointment to see a psychiatrist who deals with delusions, bipolar, schizophrenia, and the like. That's not what's been bothering me about it though, I'm really happy I'm making progress towards getting the help I need.  But what's bothering me is if they feel I do have what she called "first case psychosis" or something like that, then they're going to put me in a mental health hospital in North Bay. I don't do well out of the house, and especially when that  place is in a hospital with doctors poking at me. :/ I was wondering if anyone here could tell me what it was like for them to have a hospital stay similar to that? Just so I can sort of know what to expect.. doctors are scary lol.

[LadyAshley]

Well first off, congrats on such a big step! That is definitely a huge step forward and hopefully you can get the answers you've been desperately seeking.

I have personally never stayed in a hospital but to be honest, there have been times I wished they had of just booked me because I didn't know what I was going to do to myself. I guess the only thing I can offer is to try to take it one step at a time. Don't think about that being the outcome. Think that you are just going to go see this psych who may help you and listen to you. If the hospital course comes, then take it from there. I am sure they will be extremely helpful and talk you through everything.

When is your appointment?

[Geister]

Yeah there have been a few times like that for me too where I'd just like to go to the hospital and be like "I'm messed up, help me." lol But I always feel like I'd just be wasting their time or something. Yeah I think I'll do that, just try not to think about it too much past seeing the psychiatrist.

I don't know yet, I gave my information to the case worker who sent it out to them yesterday so I should know in the next few days.

[Phyllis]

i've never had a hospital stay for mental health reasons, all though I think I would welcome it. If you think about it in a way that you would be there to get help (and hey, getting together with other people in the same boat, may make ya feel better!) I think it could be a positive thing. People are too often frightened by a hospital stay.

[Geister]

Yeah that might be nice Phyllis. It'd be cool to talk to people who are going through what I am in person, and like you said it'd make me feel better.  I wish I could get over my irrational fear of doctors. Lol

[Kensho]

here in new jersey the mental wards are pretty busy... they don't admit people unless they're really in crisis... my wife and sister brought me to the hospital one evening, i was really having a hard time, they gave me a shot of ativan and sent me home... two days later i had a serious psychotic episode and they admitted me... i don't think you have anything to worry about to be honest, unless you're really out of it...

Kensho 

[Geister]

Well it's not really highly populated here, and the city I'm going to has around 50,000 at most I think. She said they'd rather admit me and catch something before I have a bad psychotic break than to just wait and see what happens. So I don't know, they might admit me, they might not. I still have to wait until I see the psychiatrist.

[Paz]

  I have had outpatient mental health care.....when I was first Dx'd and my shrinks office was connected to the Hospital[in the States]......they treated me and let me go home because I was crying about being away from my Husband & Son......They had my Husband & I sign some forms which had something to do with him promising I would come back in the AM the next day & every day after that for 2 weeks. I did, and it was ok.....the hospital was a small one, but very modern, it wasn't too bad, but when they take you into the ward it's kind of weird.....the big door to the wing locks shut behind you.

 I also have been to the ER for treatment, and they did something similar, with the papers & such. It's not so bad. I guess it depends on the Hospital, I think a more modern facility would seem less daunting than an old brick Hospital, you know what I mean?

[Geister]

Yeah I don't want to be alone in a hospital room for a week. :/ I hope maybe I can do something like what you did instead Paz. And an old brick hospital would scare the hell out of me. lol

[spongebobfan]

I was hospitalized two years ago for depression and suicidal thoughts. I'm actually really thankful that my doctor made me go. She really didn't give me a choice and at first I was humiliated. I found the admission process to be the worst part. Really just the embarrassment of it. I felt ashamed like I was wasting the nurses time. The thing is that sometimes when we are in bad shape our perspectives can be a little off. Looking back I know that the hospitalization was the best choice at the time. I'm thankful for it and honestly if I get that bad again I hope somebody would care enough to make me go again.

[Geister]

Yeah I always feel like I'm wasting there time. :/ Maybe I just need someone to take me there like they did with you lol I'm glad you got help when you needed it.

[graham198660]

when i went they got me stable on new meds...

[Dreamline]

Thanks for posting stuff like this you guys, I have always felt like I wasn't worth their time just for calling my reg shrink for an appointment during a crisis.  I was lucky for a long time to have a babysitter so I didn't have to go but even with him, I felt like I was waisting his time.  Sometimes he was a dick because he got tired of dealing with it and that made it worse.  

Do you guys start questioning, oh I'm really in control I don't need to go....but then you weren't really?

[Geister]

No problem.   And yeah I feel like that a lot. I think I'm fine, that everyone else goes through the same thing I do and that I just can't handle it like they do. Especially when I have a day where I feel relatively normal. Because then I start to question if there's anything wrong with me in the first place or if I'm just blowing everything out of perportion. But my boyfriend, brother, and mom seem to see something I don't because they always tell me when I'm in a bad state despite me thinking there's nothing really wrong with me.

[Paz]

  I hear that, Geister.......both times I went it was because other people saw that I was not in a good state, I thought that I was fine. I was quite delusional the first time, the second time I just thought that I was a little sad & stressed out. I am glad that my family was paying attention, because things would definitely be different today if they weren't.