Moving, Stress & Sickness

[Paz]

   Well, we are getting ready for our big move! It is exciting, but stressful. and to top it off I have a nasty Cold! My head is stuffy, my right ear and my throat is scratchy, and to top it all off, I have lost my voice! Stupid laryngitis! My voice is funny sounding and it is very frustrating to not be able to speak loud enough for anyone to hear. Thankfully my moods are subdued.....I have spoken before about Bipolar kind of taking a backseat when physically ill, and I am thankful that this seems to be the case. The Stress is not so bad, we have already sold our car and furniture. People will be coming to pick up our furniture a couple of days before we depart, things seem to be on track, yet I still feel some anxiety. I guess it is just the nature of my mental illness?
 
 I went shopping at the Mall yesterday and I was all jumpy, nervous and excited, but not bouncing off of the walls, my Cold & laryngitis helped to subdue my effusiveness. I had a bunch of nervous energy, and I got a lot accomplished. Today I am just feeling worn out and dopey. I know it's because of my cold, but I am angry at myself for feeling this way. I feel like a slug.

 We are leaving in 2 weeks, and right now I feel like I am existing in a state of limbo. ARGH!!!

 *Sigh* why is it so hard to feel calm? And why is it so hard for a Bipolar to really feel Happy? I get intense Euphoria and feelings of Joy, and Intense Anger and Sadness, but as far as regular Happiness goes, it is elusive.

[Phyllis]

feel better soon my friend. 

[Paz]

 Thanks Phyllis! 

[Dreamline]

I've never once moved so I have imagine what its like.  I think it would be exciting...I want change...I want to create my space somewhere else.  Sorry you have a nasty cold Paz...you ever drink raw kombucha?  It helps detox your body and you can get well faster.  As for stress, its weird when you do have normal emotions but I have felt plagued by anxiety too.  It like every kind of anything makes it worse.  Mine is primarily social but it doesn't matter, you know?  Its so easy for us BP people to get amped up (or down in many cases) other people don't get it.

[Paz]

  I have tried Kombucha, I know it's very good for you [DJ's sister swears by the stuff] but it tastes NASTY!!!

 I loaded up on my vitamins and have been taking echinachea and drinking Zinger tea & also Green tea with lemon.

 I feel much better, and my voice is almost back to normal! Today it was cold & rainy out and I rested for most of the day. I am worn out from stress, and I haven't been sleeping as well as I should be, I have started drinking chamomile in the evenings and it seems to be helping.

 Holy shit, we are leaving in 2 weeks! 

[LadyAshley]

Feel better Paz!

I know all about the stress of moving so I totally feel your pain.

I also understand the whole "happiness" thing. I don't know if I've ever felt truly happy.... like you said, it's the ups and downs but not a natural happiness. It really makes things hard.

*hugs*

[Paz]

  Thanks Ash, I am feeling better. And things are not too stressful, I just don't like the "limbo" state that we are in, but in less than 2 weeks we will be on our way. We have started packing non-essentials, but can't really pack much else for another week.

  Wow, you are almost at 100 posts!!! 

[LadyAshley]

Yes, I know exactly what it's like. When we moved from Nova Scotia to the Yukon, it was very stressful. All our stuff had to be shipped across the country and we had a couple weeks of waiting for the trucks and stuff to arrive once we finally got here. It was so stressful and annoying. Moving is hard and it takes a long time to get settled.

  Yay! Can you tell I spend a lot of time on here? Haha!