sometimes honesty feels so good!

[spongebobfan]

So I'm always very honest with my healthcare providers. I don't hide things and I admit when I've done something stupid. I expect to get a lecture when I deserve one. I know that is what I need to keep me accountable and keep moving toward better mental health. The thing I don't usually share the feelings that I don't want to work on this anymore. So at my last appointment I told my therapist not only that I had broken down and hurt myself (nothing major) I also told her that I have no intent at the moment of practicing mindfulness and I don't really care about anything. If I want to hurt myself who cares! Nobody. I have no husband or children and I don't want them. However the fact that I don't have them makes me feel like a loser. So anyway I just felt so good when I left because I had been 100% honest. She knows that right now I can't find energy to work on myself and I don't even want to. Do you guys keep secret from your therapists/docs or are you 100% honest?

[Ashes]

I often keep secrets from my doctor.  Other times I just dont know how to express what I am feeling.

[Kensho]

when i was seeing therapists, i was always very honest because i wanted a breakthrough desperately... i was always very honest with my psychiatrist up until a few days ago when i told him i'm no longer using most of my meds and told him other things i've been using instead with 100 fold better results and he went ballistic on me and i either stop what i'm using and go back on all my meds or he'll no longer see me as a patient... since i'm on partial insurance disability i had to agree... of course i'm not taking the fucking meds and i'm not stopping what i'm doing because it works... so every time i see him i'm just going to lie my ass off until i no longer need him then i'm going to tell him i never took my medication... and when i do this, i'm going to give him the double middle finger...   


so yeah, i'm lying to my doctor and i'm digging it...


Kensho 

[LadyAshley]

I just more or less have the issue of not knowing how to express myself properly.

[Geister]

I try to be honest, I'm really not shy when it comes to talking about myself. But my main problem is when I tell them what's going on with me, how I really feel, etc, they tend to not listen or take me seriously. Today I had one tell me that a lot of my symptoms were just from being a teenager. Doctors frustrate me. 

[Dreamline]

I lie most of the time, certain things I am very uncomfortable talking about like hallucinations and paranoia.  I try not to mention these but they can't help you if you lie!!!!  Just remember that, I need to tell myself that.