well you know DreamLine...the idea of some sort of direct influence on our genome isn't outside the realm of possibilities really... look at ancient cultures in south america alone... being advanced in astronomy and mathematics... being the culture that came up with the concept of zero... the way they built structures that aligned with celestial events.. and many of these cultures including the Egyptians clearly hint of encounters in their in their art/sculptures and drawings...
going back to the south american cultures... they use an hallucinogen called ayahausca, which is a blend between two plants.. on of them is a vine that has to be chopped into small pieces and boiled in water to extract the active found within the vine itself... all accounts that i've read and let me tell you i've read tons on it to the point i hope to try it one day, all state they come into the presence of aliens or some other beings... they all describe he same exact experience... there is a group right close to me right in manhatten that has ceremonies all of the time... I'd like to reach out to them one day... i understand there is some sort of screening process to go through which is understandable...
but here is my point.... how did these cultures know how to first select a plant that contained the dmt out of the thousands of plants present, know they had to extract through water boiling, know it had to be used with another plant to work and everyone who uses it comes into the presence of these creatures.... creatures by the way who nurture them... look it up DreamLine... you'll find tons of the same exact experience shared by everyone only described in their own words...
i've already said this already, well maybe not here but i have a hard time understanding how others feel it's impossible for even just one civilization to exist outside of our own considering there close to 200
BILLION galaxies out there... i know what i experienced when i was 13 and even though people around me always got into it when i would share i always felt this feeling of disbelief... my own family asked me just this past weekend if i thought it was possible that that was an hallucination... and all i can say is i've never had a visual experience after that episode even during my period of psychosis, which started when i was 33... from 13 to 33? 20 years and only one visual disturbance and i led a very productive life up until 33... sure i fucked up in school but i always tested high and did well in advanced school... i was well adjusted and when i finally had my break i have had no other visual hallucination till today at 41... this is a dilemma i'm facing in putting together my book... do i include this? because at that point in time i was hearing two voices outside of my head and after this event they became internally integrated and instead of having only one ally, both began to look out for me... this shit freaks my wife and family out to no end... my current short list of friends handle it much better... maybe i was hallucinating, but because this is in my database i can't dismiss it... i've already written about this and have it down... the entire experience is laid out in roughly 4 1/2 pages and i could have easily expressed it in a way that took up half of the book... this experience made me deeply question my being all there is in the universe and it was clear to me that i may not be the only "creature" made in the image of god...
consider this DreamLine... say a culture reached the stage of evolution of early man just 25,000 years ahead of us... 25,000 years is absolutely squat!!! in the big picture... where would man be along in his/hers own evolution had we not trashed the nest we live in... no body hair whatsoever? being able to survive off of only eating three plants? growing smaller over time... communicating telepathically... i can go on and on here... maybe it was mental illness because during this episode i experienced what i later learned through a deeper, much more common sense of an intense period of depersonalization/derealization... who knows really... only the great spirit... and i'm going to share something with you right now, unless i've already mentioned this before, but during the peak of my mental malfunction i was hearing a total of 5 voices and now that i'm out of the clouds so to speak, i hear just one... and she is the last voice that showed up and out of the 5 she is the only one that has ever had a name... and this is what gives my psychiatrist ammo and continues to concern my wife because i never shared my experience with cheryl when we first met and even after we were married because i learned as i got older sharing this shit didn't fly too well with others most times, so i kept it from her. and i would have continued to keep it from her but i decided to try and write a book so one afternoon i just came out and told her and as well as i'm doing this concerns the shit out of her even after i pointed out to her i had these experiences all my life and accepted them as a normal thing thinking others experienced this too.. you see, i grew up in a very strict christian household and when i tried to tell my mom about my first experiences, because it had extremely spiritual under and overtones she blew it off as imagination and holiness.. in retrospect i thank the great spirit because i may have been medicated from that point on had she seen a problem in it... would i have been voiceless from that point on and never had the encounter? i'm not sure to be honest but i can tell you with certainty that all of the meds i've been on had never stopped the audio hallucinations or fifth voice now that i've been off the meds going on well over ten months or so by guesstimate... am i schizophrenic DreamLine?
i just don't know but i'm certainly not schizoaffective because i no longer have a mood component... and it's funny before i go further, if i had to make a diagnosis of myself growing up based on the DSM i'd have to say i was bipolar with psychosis, only my ups weren't obscene and my lows were blah and very short in duration, never deep... but yeah, that's the way i see it and it explains why i was unfocused yet extremely capable.. fuck i've touched base on so much shit i was planning on putting in the book... i hope this doesn't fuck it up... maybe after you all read this pazz can edit it for me.. if she's willing i'll give her something to replace it with, because i was pretty much told not to discuss this shit but i wanted to share it with you.
look into ayahausca DreamLinea and ask yourself why do these people experience the same vision... is it just some freak thing about the plant itself? does it possess some deep message that acts on our receptors this way? or does it reveal an ancient memory we've been tricked into forgetting by the same people who try to patent molecules they recognize exist but try their best to duplicate in order to capitalize... we were left here to deal with them DreamLine... because fifth voice revealed this to me... that this is all about the spirit trying it's best to purify itself through our own existence... i hope i haven't laid too much shit out there and i really hope that pazzz will pull this down for me, i just wanted some of you to know what my head space is like right now... am i schizophrenic now?
K~~~
