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[Lisa1406]

Well hi I'm new too this site well infact I'm new too bipolar,around about 5days ago i went into the doctors give the skinny on whats been going on with me and lets just say there was tears and a red face lol.

anyways too the point Ive been put Prozac until i can see a counsellor......6-8weeks waitting list hopefully its not too late and feeling so alone in room full of me is such a normal feeling. i feel like a zombie must days or just so mad at everyone and anything i go too bed just wishing I'm not here. My girlfriend is scared of me and I'm not sure why she keeps telling but i don't remember doing any of the stuff she's saying.

I just wish i was under control so i wouldn't hurt me or any of my love ones ever again. Its a bit too late for alot of this but I'm hoping somebody will give me sum advices.
    

[Phyllis]

Well, you have come to a good place for advice. We have a lot of people here, all with different and similar experiences.
It is common for us to do things and not remember. A lot of us do it and wish that we didn't.
Control is something that we all wish we had. The only way to get it somewhat is to get on the right cocktail of meds (which can take forever!) and now my thoughts just went blank. Sorry - I can't remember whatelse I was going to say... how embarrassing...
Anywho, we are a good group of people who can give advice.

[clayton]

There's ways to control the mind, at least to some degree, while waiting for the drugs to kick in. Neating up your place  is one--nice neat place is more peaceful. Making some rules for sef is helpful, too, regarding sleep, or eating, or whatever you would like to regulate. Yoga, or control of the mind, means Moderation--dont eat a whole sack of cookies--dont sleep tiil noon. Meditation is a big, big, topic, but you can go the TM route of using a bija syllable--just try to sit still and whatever thoughts come, say OM or KLIM and chase them away. I am trying to be practical and leave religion out of it---but there are much better meditations than TM, but they require a little spiritual knowledge, which will also help control the mind.

clayton

[nordicnicki]

glad that you found us......as phyllis said many of us experienceinds of feelings.......i am losing so many days now that it is becoming a joke....i leave notes around the place to remind me of things,but alot of my actions,words and meetings are a blank to me.so you are not alone with the memory thing.
all of us are unjudgemental of anything that you feel you wish to say and you can bet your life that we understand fully...which can be a rare thing in this world for us to be understood.....feel free to pour your mind out and lean on any of us at any time...(i think that maybe i do it often,have no one else but this little family to do it with)
as for meds i cant really comment,i was diagnosed some time back and still not on any meds (partly through my stubborness and paranoia)and am now having to go through the whole thing again with new doctors...trying to prove my case.........but as many have said i am sure once they find something that is suitable for you....it may be more barerable(im just guessing there sorry) 

[cathylovesjoe]

im in the same boat as tou, and i know how frustraitin it is. ivew learnt alot from this site over the past few days. ive been told by the doc that i am, just have to go to the pdoc to confirm. and im not only on anti depressants which arent workin at all. but I promise this site is brilliant and its excellent, and it helps alot. it you take time to look at others posts,

[francie]

Hi Lisa... i'm sorry to hear you are having such a bad time of things right now...

I agree, try to put yourself on a schedule... if possible.. go to bed at a certain time and get up at a certain time... even schedule your meals... and maybe avoid junk?

If you can take walks, then that might help you too.  Might be helpful if you had someone to do this with for company?

I know it's difficult to function when we are feeling rotten.... just want you to know i'm thinking of you, and that i sure hope you can get by until you get to see a therapist/doctor hon.

take care, francie