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[Anna]

Before I say what I need to,,know I love my family and know how lucky I am to have them.
 Now ,,with that being said,,
Why won't my family back off ? Its time it did. I get manic when so much is demaded of me. I'll work all day here,but I hate when I'm dragged out into the world by people for weeks at a time.Makes me lose it. I get manic and have panic attacks. They don't care, because they think I should be able to do all the things they do. My mom and brother the over-acheiver's have always made me feel worthless. This has been going on non-stop for weeks now. Same old story. They drag me from one place to another,knowing it make me sick after a while. After all,,I'm on disabilty for a reason. Gezzz. This needs to be done,that needs to be done. Mean while I can't get the time to get my stuff done. My house is a wreck,the lawnmower is broke down,the grass is sky high,and my family has a list of crap for me to attend,do,or create. And there is no saying no. No,,god forbid,,there is no saying no to them. If I do, I have to put on the "guilt backpack". They have a whole room of them stored away to help me carry the guilt they place on me.
Why can't they accept my limatations. And now I'm going to chruch Sunday. I know,I know its mothers day. I should want to go with my mom. But I don't see how I'm gonna get any rest and get better if I have to be 20 miles away at 9:00 a.m. Plus the party tomorrow night at my brothers. I'll have to drive at night in a place I always get lost in. And then the icing on the cake,,I have to be at the doctor Monday morning to be sucks of blood for my levels. I won't list all the crap I had to deal with over the last few weeks,,but just know,,its more of the same. Sometimes I want to hide under a rock. I hope Monday afternoon come fast. And I hope I make it to that day.

[Paz]

Anna,
 I'm sorry that your family is giving you a hard time, and that they are demanding too much of you. My father won't acknowledge my illness, says I'm a hypochondriac with a lot of energy and a bad temper. 
 It's understandable that you are near your breaking point....do you have any ativan or xanax or valium to help to tide you over until monday comes? I'm sorry I don't have any better advice, all I can tell you is that when my family visits, I take extra valium till I'm doped to the eyeballs. At least then I can deal with all the shit they throw at me, and not get upset. Hang in there. And remember, there are people here who understand what you are dealing with.
 Paz.

[Frog]

Anna.
 The only thing i will say is hang in there high is the same way. And on sunday i am going to make sure she can do what she wants. I hope you have a grate Mother's Day.

[high maintenence]

Yes, Anna, I do go through the same types of things. If you've read my latest posts, you see that I'm dealing with my husband's family on a constant basis now. I, like Paz am overdosing on the Valium to try to keep the anger down...My question to your family would be- where in they hell are they when you need help with the lawn mower/yard and the house. I can't imagine living alone like you do. I am lucky that I can raise a little hell and make people jump up and run for a while making them do what they need to do around here. Then it subsides, and I must raise a little more hell, but it must not to be too bad b/c they are still here. Anyway, If I can't go, I've gotten very good at saying "I can't" which is very often. It is so true in my case, and it sounds like in yours, that when we overdo it, it becomes lethal to us....Hang in there and get some BALLS...and I will try to do the same LOL...I know it's hard b/c being bipolar makes us think about their feelings more than our own, but there is a limit. When you hit that limit, unfortunately, it's usually too late. Anyway, I don't have advice for you, only sympathy, b/c I know how tough it is...xxx

[Anna]

I'm going to make sure to take a 1/2 valium before all the running begins again. I'm feeling a little more energetic now,,hope it last.

[nordicnicki]

my family try to control me and so wish i would conform to society...but then i havent told them i am bp.....dont want to as i know that they will be worse than they are already....my sympathy goes out to all of you whose families know and make things difficult for you xx

[Anna]

Well I went to the party at my brothers last night. The food was great and everyone was nice. I spent most of my time with my son. Only got to see him 6 hours.Hes on his way back to Texas today. I can't stand him being so far away anymore. He wants to come home to so we hope something new opens up here. I also spent the time with my grandson on my hip.That baby makes things seem better. No matter how down I am. I had fun with my family. That doesn't happen alot. My mom did try to complain about this and that,,but I did well avoiding getting into a "big talk" with her. Her politics make me mad. Of course they are all voting by religion,and won't even look at the real issues. Uggghh!