loneliness

[k]

you know you're right about the anger thing. i try to pretend i don't have an anger problem, that it's just my dad and sister. and while i don't have a rage problem, when i'm not nicely medicated my husband kindly describes it as cranky.  a more appropriate discriptions might be a walking dormant Mt. i'll say St. Hellens cuz i can't spell anything else.  i have to drive with my 2 middle fingers glued to the palm of my hand = it's a requirement!  i've learned that it's not a good idea to flip off GANG members they chase you!   but high, you definately don't float alone. and those that feel a lot that usually includes some anger!! and, i too can cry when my anger seems to be getting the best of me.   so keep talking/writing, some of us probably most of us can relate!

[high maintenence]

you are so funny K...and always helpful...all of you are

[nordicnicki]

i know that bp can make your feelings deep and intense...but doyou think sometimes all that loneliness is there because we just dont let people close enough,due to our own feelings about ourselves,or is that just me?
as for the anger mine is internal it never comes out into the open,which i think would be better for me if it did.

[sojo]

Hi Kate ,if I lived in your city,there's a chance we might be friends.I feel lonely too and bad haircuts make it worse!You have a good trait.You are very realistic.I hope your lonliness goes away soon,sojo

[Joe Buck]

   I apologize if I posted these 2 poems I wrote. At present my memory is not the best. Feel the poems would be appropriate with theme of loneliness.
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          Hopeless
Do you ever feel so hopeless
Like experiencing a enormous vacuous void
You mourn for those close to you
Mourn for those you never knew
Mourning for those to come
And those that you will soon lose
For a past lost
A present destroyed
And a future soon to fall to pieces
Wishing to change
What was destined to happen
Feeling hopeless for what you will soon become
Fearful to live each coming day
Wanting to leave
Having to stay
Thrown at you all at once
A illness with little you can do
         
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                 GOD ONLY KNOWS
God only knows why my illness is to be.
The illness,like a lonely road;my life turned to be.                                   
I pray through it all,I will not lose my faith in me.

The road became terribly dark.
There was no-one to help me see.
The illness had a horrifying grip on me.

Now my life will have many a darkened road.
But sadly there is little help to aid me to see.
The tragedy is just not simply the illness ; I believe.

It’s the prejudice and discrimination that narrow-minded
people heed.
From past to present this inhumanity is allowed to be.
And because of it’s aftermath it diminishes societies’ faith in me.

God only knows why this is to be.
Very difficult journeys for all people with illnesses  like me.
But good words of inspiration will help illuminate those gloomy roads  of uncertainty.


1) “Tomorrow  is always a new day.”
2) “Even if we stray from our path,we have learnt many things on our way.”
3) “Life is too important to take seriously.”
                                                                         
                                                                      Sponge Bob


                                                                           

[high maintenence]

I am lonely at this moment, which is rare. I have so much energy, and nothing to do. I tried working on my scrapbook, but that takes too much attention and I seem to be unable to sit still for long enough. I made one page in about an hour and it doesn't even look like my best work. Movie-same story as scrapbook, just can't get interested. Books-no way, so I'm on the bpbabble which rocks. It keeps me sane, I swear. I love you guys and you just don't know what it means to me that you take the time to read these posts and respond to them. It's 4:15am and I feel like having a party-and this is being said by a majorly depressed person BTW. Everyone is in bed and you guys are all I have.