he's had enough

[nordicnicki]

well as you may all have noticed lately i havent reall been quite me....and yes that bloody fairy is still there....
my ex boyfriend(with whom we are trying to sort things out)was disgusted that i was this way again....it all seems fine with me.....and is taking me to the docs himself,he has had enough and wants his old nicki back.
i have such a problem telling docs exactly whats in my head without feeling stupid and giggling,so eric is insisting on doing it for me............im glad of his help(he is one of the few that can handle me)but i also feel akward accepting it,i dont know why....its a bit like i have lost the battle,not in control..........

have any of you had someone speak up for you do get things done? how did it make you feel and did it work?

[Phyllis]

I have, but not in regards to my BP.
It left me feeling resentful, like everyone thought I was a child and couldn't do things on my own. But in the end, it was a good thing that someone did step up to the plate and take charge, otherwiwse things wouldn't have ever been sorted out.

[Joe Buck]

Nordicnicki,
 Just got off the phone, talking to the (DBSA) Depression & BP Support Alliance, about your situation. Here is DBSA's phone number: 1-(800) 826-3632. Here's the gig, according to the intake person (receptionist) or what ever title you what to give said person. Call DBSA & tell them you want to talk to a specialist in, bipolar support for family & friends. Receptionist said DBSA does not have a professional in house to talk to, but can get you a phone # of a professional counsellor, trained in this support area. I did not inquire if the counsellor was a free service of the DBSA? You can ask about that if you call. Another avenue is inquire if the DBSA has a walk-in support group in your area. Also, the DBSA has much information on their internet site about bipolar support of family & friends. DBSA's URL: http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageServer?pagename=home  Nicki, please let me know how this worked out for you & your boyfriend, if you go through with it. Hopefully you can get a professional counsellor free of charge or just the cost of the phone call. Joe Buck (Bob) always willing to help.

[Phyllis]

She is in the UK, Joe.

[Joe Buck]

Nicki,
  Rereading your post I believe I put the carriage in front of the horse. Your boyfriend wants to go with you to your Doctor appointment. I would check first because if this is allowable with all the privacy crap. If you have to do all the bull shit paper work first to clear your BO or is as simple as the doc's O.K. I would get all the details set before your appointment. You don't want your boyfriend sitting by the door. Next to concider, how good is your doc at councilling. Most modern psychiatrist's just get into meds & treatment. Clinical psychologists & certified councillors are to one's to discuss & answer your Bo's questions. To make a long story short, "Rome wasn't built in a day." Another words, you are struggling with BP, & have a ton of unanswered questions in your head & will have for life. So do you think one appt. will get your BO squared away. Dream on Alice, I think not. For all of us: family & friends alike : "It's a work in progress." But one appt. can't hurt, but I know it will not close the deal. If you & your BO want to go the distance together, the DBSA is the route. Much more flexible, good support history, & very cost affective.
   My experience, my sister & I worked out great. Note: My sister is unipolar, But I feel she is BP. The belief of my wife is BPD was a "excuse". She filed for divorce & on May 15, 2001 her wish was granted. "Bad boy, bad boy, what you going to do, what you going to do when your wife puts the smack down on you" !!
                                                  Joe Buck formally known as Sponge Bob

[Joe Buck]

UK.....Bummer! Guess I typed before I looked....yee, haa

[clayton]

Dear Joe: You can take your boyfreind, your mother, or your friends with you to see the doc if he doesnt object to it--there is no privacy paperwork--I have broiught friends with me.

I suspect some of these alliance type organizations make some of their money on referrals to shrinks--it is not free--you pay the shink $80 to talk to yu for half an hour and the alliance gets a kickback.

[nordicnicki]

thabk you joe...even though we dont have things like you have in the uk.....i could still see where you were coming from....erics not my bf...he was but i couldnt cope with a relationship so he stands behind ready to catch my falls.........i guess if im honest i need him to talk for me.....im rubbish with actually words,i cant concentrate or make sense....but im great if i can write stuff(which is no good for my docs)
as for saying about there basically being no quick fix....this has gone on for years...i think i posted before about being diagnosed, offered help,refusing it because of paranoia and then my notes being lost so now having to prove the bp all over again.eric isnt happy with how i am being treated this time and guess he is scared that ending it will be my option.
phyllis i think from what you said...i really do need help with this or things will never change,im not strong enough on my own.
clayton...our shrinks etc are all free...that is if you can ever get to see one!...we dont have paperwork as our health care,whatever it is ,is free(unless i can private then i would need to sell my kids to pay for it...
thank you though when i wrote this post i felt pathetic,a loser,useless....but now its making me think that is ok to accept help as hard as it is sometimes....i have been to docs so many times on my own and leave feeling numbe and confused at what happened in there